00:17 AM: Bogged down with a lot of backlogs... I feel vulnerable. Lots of pressure from various fields keep me too busy in the mind getting me almost crazy. Tomorrow is appraisal goal setting meeting! And I still don't know whether to stay back in this project or get out in Jan, which is suicidal in case I don't get any other project by Jan itself. I have long wished for a smooth transition, but my famous luck has come between my favorite dreams every time!! March is the end of appraisal cycle, and I can't just afford to get less than four, at least should be three.Right now I feel I had made hurry, and is going to loose the string of constant good ratings of four for the last two years.And this next moment I am too much frustrated as my career shapes up to be a 24X7 slave!
Don't know what I'll put up for me, but surely would have to get a respectable peace treaty. Seems I lost the war I waged against mismanagement! Again, once again I have to make a compromise, or shall my nightmare end tomorrow? Man proposes God disposes... that it has been almost all my life as I have lived it!
What I want from life or office or work is still a mystery to me, as the mind overpowers the heart, and vice versa occurs two days later ! I want to be rich, famous, which is only possible by being a business owner, while I don't see myself competent enough, not brimming with fantastic ideas, in all not ready to rock the world... (a smoke needed!!:-P)
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